Monday, April 22, 2013

Good Bye and Good...... Luck

I don't actually know if I still have to take it easy in this case.
Things changed all of a sudden.
She came, and left just within 24 hours, actually it's much lesser than that, only 1 + 0.5 working day.
By right it's not supposed to be in that way. But....... does it make any difference?

This year, just within 4 months, 3 people left our team.
Morever, they are all senior members, had been with us > 2 years, or even more than that.
It was really a hard time for us, for us who remains, who still be together.
Nevertheless, I believe that we can overcome it despite all the challenges and shock that came to us.

I won't say I've fully accepted her decision.
She wished for my blessing, I did. But, I doubt if she really cares.
We did sense that she has the thought of moving on before she came back.
And then we have prepared for the worst.
But then, she showed up.
When we thought that thing might changed, our miserable time might come to an end and things were getting better, she gave us a great shock.
Just one day, we fell down from sky to earth (not the H & H).
And the notice was TOO SHORT, until it was really unbelivable.
We are in critical situation now, people are leaving, resource constraints, works are piling up, we are struggling to get them done. And she knows it. But she still made her decision.
Maybe it's her once and only chance in her life time, maybe it's her dream job.
But I believe that, she just so desperate to leave here.

My new lead was so frustrated and depressed when she came back from the news.
Y also felt very upset and angry. 'Betrayed', is the word that she used to describe her feeling.
I can't help feeling bad for this. I just don't understand why someone can be so inconsiderate.
You should know the impact when you make the decision, but then you still so cruel to ask me to bless for you. Do you know that N has postponed her thesis because of this?

Like what Chinese saying "the earth won't stop turning for anybody".
So I believe that we can overcome it, and then we are doing it very well at the moment.
This has pulled us together and be more united as a team.

Y advised me to let it go and wish for her. But I can't.
If she could find what she wants, of course it's not a bad thing. But then after all this I don't think I can be so generous. She's the one who turned her back on us, so please understand.

Anyhow, let bygones by bygones. We need to move on, we need to find our way to survive.
So for her, I'll still say........... Good Bye. And Good................ Luck?