It was a surprise to me when I saw this email came into my inbox today. I didn't realize that 10 years ago I had sent an email to myself. And actually at that moment I doubted the website will still be functioning a decade later. :P
Yes, I'm totally amazed, surprised and when I read through the message, it actually brought me in tears. I saw how much life has changed tremendously and if I had a chance to go back in time, the most I feel heartbroken is losing my dad.
If I would to reply to myself in this email....
Hi You in 2007,
Thank you for writing to me.
You have no major achievement now, just that at the same time, there is not much regrets I have except one big incident.
Yes, you had your first travel in flight in Sep 2, 2012, when you flew to Bangkok with your colleague from QA team. It was an amazing trip, you had your first authentic Thai food, to a historical city Ayutthaya, and explored to a lot of new things.
It's when your dream of "travel around the world" starts as the next years later you had your second trip to Alor Setar & Langkawi also by flight, and another year you had your first footstep to Taiwan. In the year 2016 itself, you visited 2 countries: Hong Kong and Taiwan (again!). These 2 were totally unplanned holiday so it went a bit expensive yet enjoyable and worth the price.
Unfortunately, none of your family were with you in any of these trip. And regrettably, your dad will never have a chance to travel with you again.
After a decade, you are still single now. But you enjoy your life, so there is nothing to worry about it. Oh ya, in Aug 2007, your nephew Kenny was born, and he actually brought laughter and liveliness to your family. And after your keilui Swen & keizai En came into the world, you have been "upgraded" to another level now, you are their "keima" and "yiyi" (aunty). So you don't need to get married and have a child of your own to enjoy a life as a "mother".
Finally you have left your job in your 8th year in IBM and joined Shell since 2013. Your career would never be easy after that. You learned to become more resilient despite all the struggles, impact and frustrations. It's still tough to you now but from your past exprience, I believe that I can find my way to move on.
In Aug 2017, this is what happened when your world collapsed after you have lost your dad. You may not feel how heartbroken is that, but it's part of your body is empty forever and can never be cured and filled up. It impacts your whole family while everybody feel painful about it. But with your hands holding together, you managed to get over it although you will still cry when you miss him so much.
Life is tough and full of obstacles. But I believe I will keep the faith and move on.
不忘初心。
Thanks to what you have started in 2007, it makes me who I am in 2017.
Yours faithfully,
Yourself in 2017
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