Some thoughts

It's sad that when you have added too many friends in your Facebook, you need to be very careful when you are posting your words, because all of your friends, colleagues, family members, relatives, etc. will all see what you have posted. It happened that, I posted a picture where my car got hit and bent, not long later, my aunt called my mom and asked what happened. Actually I wouldn't have posted if I didn't want my family to know, but I just thought of telling them after I settled everything. I didn't expect the words were spread so fast.

Now even if I'm really emotional and wanted to put something on to vent out my stress, I have to think twice, triple, or forever. Either I limit the view to closed friends only, or I exclude somebody or some group of people from the viewing it, or I don't post at all.

I know it's immature to vent out my own feeling online, especially negative ones. But sometimes when the emotion comes you really can't help it. I used to be someone with resilience and endurance, but now things change, somewhere went wrong that those things I used to be proud of doesn't exist anymore and it's getting lesser and lesser at times.

But I'm still consider myself as resilient. As, you know, I need to survive. I've been through so much of hardship, working in a difficult environment for more than a decade, what else I can't tolerate? Emotion comes, but it could be absorbed and vanished. Life goes on, don't let emotion controls you, you have to deal with it.

Nobody can challenge me except myself. I have to find my way out or get stuck inside.