Feel free to speak your mind without negative consequences.
Somehow it doesn't really exist in real situation. People are afraid in their mind, no matter how much you encourage them to speak out. Things are always personal. It takes a very high EQ and wisdom to be a neutral person.
After a thousand thoughts in my mind, finally, since he brought up the SPS, I made up my mind and took my 120% courage to stop him and speak my mind.
It was not an easy conversation definitely, especially when you know that who are you dealing with. For someone who poor in words like me, it really takes up a lot of guts to open up my heart to others who has the decisive role to you.
It took less than an hour to complete the conversation, although when I thought about it afterwards I found that I have missed out some important points, I still feel relieved at least I've spoken out what I have been thinking of doing it for so long.
Will it bring any negative consequences after this conversation? I hope not. But if it does, it's out of my control. I've done my part. Our leaders encouraged us to "feel free to speak our mind", so moving forward, it's depends on how I'm going to do to gain their trust.
Actually before this, I really had so many things in my mind what I would like to share:
- I had trust at the beginning until I found that my words had been shared with others which I thought it should be between both of us.
- It's definitely not wise to tell people, "I studied psychology before, I know what are you thinking", you don't need to say it if you do.
- Trust is earned, not given, and
Trust is like a paper, once it's crumpled, it won't be perfect again.
But anyhow, it's over. I should pull myself together again and leave the past behind and continue my journey. Hopefully I can find my way out now.