What's this feeling called?

It was in the meeting, when somebody told me some of the 'good news', and right after that, I felt a bit upset -- actually not really a bit, but in fact, very much.


People who really work hard do not get a single appreciation, and those who actually lousy got a reward. What kind of world is this? Are we looking at people's really performance or how they look from the outside? Nowadays, nothing really has a real credibility, not matter national or international awards, people can always find a 'way' to win them. It's just depends on how 'skillful' you are.


But what to do? Can I just say that it's the real life? Nothing really fair and if you really care then you'll be more unhappy. Just take it and swallow everything into your stomach and turn it into a sh**. It's also what everybody else do.


Yet I always believe that there is "natural selection" in this world, only people who capable survives. You can't depend on your luck forever, luck is like money in your bank, if you don't deposit at the end nothing is left. It sounds a bit like self-consolation, but no matter what, live goes on, you need to find a way to survive. For those you really feel unfair of, if you can't change it, just sh** it.