Gave up

It might be my chance of a life time, I truly understand that, I may not be having another same opportunity in the near future. But it really doesn't suit the time. I have to let go. It's a waste, but it's the only choice I have now.


Other than it's a permanent, I don't find there is any other thing significantly more than what I'm having now. Just because it's permanent I have to give up what I have now and get something really unknown to me.


It's not worth it. At least, my calculator told me that.


I've turned down the offer. It's really a hard decision for me. And at the moment, I still can't tell if my decision is correct, but at least, it's the only decision I could make. Just let the future tells me if I've made the right choice.

The best compliment I've got

At the end of September, it's Hari Raya holiday for Malaysia on from Monday to Tuesday, and also there are public holiday for Japan consecutively from Monday to Wednesday.


So actually you could expect that most of the members here were enjoying their long vacation somewhere, and I'm one of the members who were still on duty.


Bruce actually is from business side, he used to questioned us for some 'inproper-handled' issue and raised some request for us to action on it. Usually he deals with our TL, but now, no choice I have to the one who responded to his enquiries.


Luckily, even if I were so afraid to make mistakes, I still managed to do what he asked without making serious mistakes -- maybe it's not perfect yet. And at the end, I received this email.


I really grateful that I could do something independently finally without relying on any TL or 1.5 to give me advice and guidance, yet I still hope that in the future, we could have better process when we need to do support when so many people from the HD and SM are off....

This, really had lighten up my day.

Doodling

He's not good in learning to speak, but he has been picking up a pen in a correct way before 2 years-old. And since then, he likes to doodle anytime, anywhere. Sometimes he will doodle with a sound "Ah... Ah... Ah...", and sometimes (actually most of the time) he wants us to write ABC for him. I think I've never been writing so many ABCs before during my schooltime... Gosh, This is crazy!

Here got all his 'artworks'... the door:


under the folding table:


the sofa:


the newspaper:

試験を終わりました

今日の昼は試験でした。

Finally I passed the exam, got to another level. But still, I don't think I can communicate with 日本語 now. I've signed for the next level, but actually I'm not sure how far I want to go... my objective is, to be able to communicate in Japanese. So which level you think I should go? haha

ありがとう、中村さん。これらの私の同級生です。

Crazy service

Today, because of a crazy thought, I decided to back to the bus station again. But I forgot that I never can leave the office on time nowadays, and I was... maybe too confident about the bus service. And consequently, I end up standing alone at the bus stand, for almost an hour.

I don't know if the bus came at last, and what time it came. I've already called my dad and back to the office.

Burning sun, burning pocket, whatever. I just don't care anymore, the most important thing is, I don't want to be waiting like an idiot anymore!

p/s: I wondered if it's because of this fasting month? But even though for other days their service is still never be good. Now bus fare increased, but the service level dropped. We, who take out money from the pocket, end up suffering ourselves by paying more to them, what for?

The red umbrella, for free

It was just a sudden thought, I want to change from Avast to Avira. I'm not sure if it's related, I thought that ever since I installed Avast, I can no longer access to sina.com. This is one of the reasons why I decided to make a change.

But disappointedly, even if I have reinstalled my antivirus program, nothing changed. The website is like freezing, the loading bar is like not moving at all. The status bar remains at "Waiting..." or "Transferring...", and now it even freezed my pc.... >.<

Have to go to bed now, not much time on doing any testing. Hopefully this wouldn't be my wrong choice for choosing the wrong antivirus software.... gosh!

Drive to work...

Starting from last week, I've never been taking bus.
But driving to work definitely no fun at all.
It's only mid of the month, you can't get any nice parking place.
Your choices are: open-air cheap parking but under the hot sun,
or covered parking but expensive.
It's crazy.
Mum said tomorrow I may bring the car again.
I said, "What?"
I would prefer having a nap on the bus...... haha
But what about the bus routine?
It's also crazy.
Nowadays going to work also not easy.
Gosh!

I'm free~~~

Because of a technical failure, I got 1 minute and 27 seconds late for my lunch hour.
The problem was, I was still at my desk during my lunch time.
It's unfair, but it was my itchy hands to press on the button. Who could I blame to?
Management changed, people in-charge changed, rules changed.
No more exemptions, no more discussions, no more exceptions.
Now I have to bear with my own fault.

And then, I started to be more lenient to myself.
There have been so much time contraints on my free time.
Time in, time out, time for lunch......
I've never been really enjoying my free time during my work.
This is my choice, of course.
Unlike others, they've already given up.
They really 'enjoy' their lunch hour very much, go far far away, eat nice nice food, talk and chat as much as they like......
Now, the good thing is, at least starting from now until the end of the month, I'm free.
All my lunch buddies are welcome to invite me for lunch.
Dengkil, SK, Equine...... who cares?
hahaha~

Missing person

She just disappears like this. Uncontactable. Without any specific reason.
Since last Friday she SMS me for MC, this week, she totally leave uncontactable.
No answer to phone calls, no reply to SMS.
I know maybe there is another way to contact her.
But if she really doesn't want to respond to you, all the things that you do are just meaningless.

Maybe there were secret discussion took place previously.
We are not sure.
They were from the same group, we can't avoid thinking that way.
Disappointed. Of course. But what can we do?

What happen to CRM?
Many people just like want to leave desperately.
And the one who left stay busy.
But what I believe that this won't be long.
We have been through so much tough times,
and we will get over this too.