A new change will begin

As I always think, my career path has never been smooth. For some position, others can just take it without any difficulty, some even beg them to take the role. For me, I always need to work harder and harder, but still just step up a little bit. Anyhow, I still feel grateful in these 4 years, I at least got something in my hands. All my efforts and hardworks are recognized in some aspects.

Some asked me, why I still want to stay after so much disappointment. For me, one reason is I'm actually quite a lazy person. I'm lazy to do the job hunting, I'm lazy to attend interviews and answer questions. I'm lazy to go to a new environment and learn everything from the beginnng...

Another thing is, I had put so much effort and work on this team, I'm one of the 'pioneers' of this team, we built up the team, we learnt all the skills and knowledge then teach the others. Every single document in the KB, every emails that we sent out, all with our blood, sweat and tears... we have gone through so much challenge, but at last, the team almost collapse. This is sad. I just... don't want to give up.

After the meeting, I feel more doubt and puzzled. I really don't know what's ahead of me. Starting from next week, I will take a new challenge. L decided to stay, but will work part-time (half day) for one month. But S is sure to go. I have to learn to make decision by my own, try not to make any mistake, learn to take more responsibilities, and of course, time management and task management.

Am I really capable to handle all these?

Avatar 3D

This is the second time I watched this movie, this time, it's in 3D. Frankly speaking, this is not as excited as I expected. The extra RM5 surcharge, doesn't really worth watching, but worth trying.

Although it's no more excitement, the second-time experience is still good. This is a great movie, no doubt about that. Some of the scenes and pictures are still flashing through my head even though the movie has ended for so long.

Today, is also the gathering with 2 of my ex-colleagues. We worked together in the school before. It's quite rare for me to still keep contact and meet up with my ex-colleagues, they are one of them... for more specifically, only she.

I try to keep my working thing away from my head in these 2 days, but tomorrow, I have to get back to my 'battlefield', to continue facing those unknown challege ahead of me. The worst thing is, I don't know what will happen, especially when most of them are leaving. How this team is going to be, how the people here is going to be, I really have no idea. Anyhow, as it's unpredictable future, since I have decided to stay, I have to accept everything in front of me and overcome it.

Back to FF today

This is the very first time I drove to KLCC. I couldn't find the way to Avenue K, therefore I parked at the very expensive carpark in KL.

I think this is the only time I could join combat class on Saturday evening, because starting from next week, I'll continue my JP class again. The instructor has changed, he's quite cute but his joke really.... can't make me laugh.

I feel 'free' when going there by '4-wheels', although I still need some time to get familiar with finding my way, I'm sure I'll learn by experience.

Happy New Year 2010~!

It's already a decade since the millenium. 2009 wasn't a peaceful year, H1N1, economic crisis, political issue, natural disasters... it seems the bad things happened all the time.

For the next decade or even next century, I wish for a peaceful and cheerful year, to all my friends and family.

I didn't go any countdown event yesterday. At the very first second of the new year, I was still in front of my computer, surfing the internet. Today, also no special things to do, just went to Tesco with my family. Although it sounds a bit boring, it can also be peaceful... isn't it?

Another shocking news

Previously, she said she'll stay. Today, she changed her mind.

Whether or not the 'reason' that she provided is a reason or an excuse, it doesn't matter anymore. The fact is, she doesn't have 'heart' on here.

So now, for all the 'seniors', only 2 of us left. It's interesting. How am I gonna 'bring up' these 'young kids' until they can be independent? I myself even cannot be fully independent yet, not to mention bringing up others.

He talked to me, tried to get me to stand on his side. I'm still a bit reserved on this. Actually, it's very easy to gain my trust, just you may not know the way and skill.

I have signed my name on, there is no turning back. But anyhow, I've finally told him my suggestion. Just see how..... everyone will have their way to survive. I hope that I can find mine too.

My signature is on

Finally, with all the question marks covered my head, I still made up my mind, put my signature on that 'shits' of papers.

I'm not that kind of 'fighter', I know there is something unfair around here, but I really don't know what can I do. I don't know how to fight for my right, I'm tired of all these fights and arguments and disappointment... now what I'm focus on, is how can I get my job done and train up the newbies, until I could 'retreat'......

I was really lost before I made my decision. I need some helpful advice. Until I talked to HK. After talking to her, I think I have to give up all the useless fight. I can't really do anything after all. And now I just hope that there will not be any negative outcome happened to us, and no more shocking news to impact on me, so that I can continue working peacefully.

About the PM, nothing better can be expected from him. It'd be the best if there is nothing crazy from him...

The future? unknown. Just keep on my work and see...

On Christmas Day

Christmas deco at Leisure Mall

I met with my best friend on this holiday, I thought she would be busy as this is supposed to be their 'big day' for her religion. Good news is, she still had time to meet with me in the afternoon.

We were leisuring around in the Leisure Mall, chit-chating, visiting bookshop and video shop until the dinner time. After that, I was brought to a 'special place', in purpose by somebody, where I actually didn't really feel comfortable with it.

I don't have any prejudice against any religion, but for me, I just try not to limit my thinking into a certain region and set any boundary on it. I just believe that, any thinking that is initially good for human being should be accepted.

To be frank, I was a bit shocked and scared when I knew it was done in purpose. Of course I respect any thinking for anyone, but I just want to keep myself to be free, that's all.

Anyhow, it's still happy to be with my best friend on this holiday.